Time passes and I'm still hear

Time has passed, things have gone, but this feeling of resent at myself has stayed while it laughs at my gallows as I stare at my feet with something so pure and innocent. Just one look is all I need, that look that tells you everything is going to be okay, but how can I see when you blind me with this hatred. I don’t want to run anymore, I don’t want to hide from the evil that breaks me as I fall. I can’t do it, but if this pain means I can stay in your life then so be it, I’ll let time pass as my heart ache kills me.

Her eyes

It’s dark with an ounce of silence, the wind was blowing and the trees whistling as the air passes by, I stop to look and her eyes are cold, cold like the brutal realisation of the world that frightens us, the realisation that once was, is no more as the black pit of hell opens as I’m drawn closer and closer to what they call nothing and all my dreams and all my thoughts that are happy are gone, gone like my life has ended there and then. The darkness of her soul clenches her hands around my neck therefore I start to choke but the beating of my heart and the butterflies that over fill my stomach indicate to my mind that everything is okay even though my deepest fear is becoming my reality. I have nothing, nothing left to give to you but you over crowed me with something I don’t want to see, why are you doing this, why me, why is it that what I am seeing and feeling I do not want but the cold rush that is creeping through my mind needs more, This girl who I didn’t know, this girl who was afraid, she was more beautiful than you could ever imagine and in that split second I was happy.      

Basketball

Basketball it explains life perfectly you win some you loose some, the more you put into it, the better it gets, the less you put into it the worse it gets, you get off days and really good days but whats not to like about the game.

The moment i knew i was wrong

I'm not sure what it was, I was so fine about it until I got close it was like every feeling I had that month had just suddenly rushed into my stomach. I took a deep breath hoping this feeling would go away but the clenching of my nerves where here to stay, my knee wasn't very forgiving as it buckled because it was shaking with fear. I was there, I had beaten the barrier but all that was left to do was climb the wall that seemed impossible, the wall that crushed me many times before. I had slipped a few times as the guilt over rid my head while my heart beats so fast I can't control it. It rang and the suspense was unbearable I just felt like letting go and falling until I hit rock bottom, then a shadow appeared and my world got sucked into a black pit called hell but as soon as I saw her eyes I was back, everything that was is no more, no feeling of guilt or nerves just a feeling of my heart being lifted into heaven. At first it felt awkward but then it just helped me get through the time I was there. I've seen her beauty before but it was not until then I had realized the true beauty she had held for all this time. We had talked for a while and for that short while my life was complete and it was at the point of going that I realized that everything I had done was the best for both of us but I couldn't help but say in my mind that all of it was mistake and I just wished I could go back where I was happy and so sure about everything, as goodbye left my mouth and a cuddle following after it I could of shot myself there and then because I had finally felt the pain I put you through, I walked away with the love tumbling down my face dropping to the floor, I realized I was wrong about everything and now I have got to face the consequences. All I can say is I'm sorry and I will always love you, forever and always.

Something you don't realise

It takes less than a second to click a button for a picture to be taken. How many pictures have you taken where there is someone you don’t know, someone you would have never talked to, someone that would never cross your mind, for that split second did that person have an impact on your life, was it there purpose to be there or were they there at the wrong time. It makes you wonder if you have made an impact on someone’s life and was it meant to be that you where in their photo, how many photos are you in? How many times has one person caught a glimpse of your face? How many lives have you made an impact on?

Out with friends

 I was out with some Friends and thought that I
may take some photos while i am out and this is what become of them hope you like it :)
                                                                





Hope, what is hope? Is hope something we like to hold on to or something we like to believe in because we have nothing else to help us through life when times are bad, We hold on to every last bit of hope because we all think that it makes a difference but in fact it doesn't because in theory we are our own hope so only you can make a difference.                                                                                                                                                

We all want to be something great, something we can all be proud of or something we can do to show off, me, no, i don't want be great i want be better..

We all look up at the sky and stare into to the distance, what are we looking for?

Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's 
the moments that take your breath away.

Live life like a cruise and I'm sure everything will run just fine!

Just one kickflip is like a life time of awesomeness!

Something we can't change

The one thing we can never change is the one thing that could set a different mood for everything. Right now it's thundering and lighting outside and everyone seems to be scared and conveniently alone and that fear of what we don't know holds us back and keeps us still, but why not take a walk outside, face your fear and find the wonders of our world.

My hour of weakness

It felt like pain was seeping through my soul while a blade meandered down my body cutting through my skin, the pain terrified me, it was something that made me shake in fear of my life not knowing what's next. My body started to beat in way I cannot describe as the blade pierces my heart ripping my life apart into shreds, and then a sudden flood of reality came to my mind as the realization of my fear was non-existent. But then a sudden rush of terror hit the air giving me a smack in the face when a hot sweat trickled down my face, then a cold chill ran down my back as I start to hold my breath, my head went under and the water covered everything, even the dark pit of my soul was drawn in by the sound of the bubbles floating to the surface of hell which keeps me trapped. When the adrenalin kicked in just a few seconds felt more like a few hours of sorrow leaking into the cracks of the earth, my life was over, I had nothing left to give until you crept into my on-going mind that drives me crazy. I was dead until you smothered me with something that was so beautiful, something I could not live without, something that life itself cannot offer you, something that made me think otherwise. My lungs were replenished as I made a gasp for air. Guilt and selfishness follows me every step I take while I cry myself to sleep so the feeling of contempt slowly fades away into the darkness. The feel of contempt fades as I watch myself sleep. I am free, free from the moment of weakness that over rides me in my time of enclosure. I close my eyes and the pain and fear that once was is no more…   So I close my eyes and I sleep.

Who am I?

Am i who i want to be, or am i who other people want me to be, or am i who i want other people to see me, maybe I'm just a little bit of everything because I'm just too scared to be myself!!!

Just A Dream

My life stopped in a flash as she looked at me with eyes more beautiful than an angel, my body rises with a cold rush that tickles the back of my neck setting off a twitch causing my body to clench as butterfly's heap into my stomach. I had started to speak but words could not form into any shape possible, she laughs as her head is tilt towards the floor as she try's to hide the red hot blush that secretly hit her face. She gazes into my eyes and the words that could not be said before had come alive while the rain hit my skin soaking my body and soul. A kiss on her cheek was just right for this moment then following with a long pause as I stop to stare, the words your beautiful passes through the air as it gently creeps into her ears. I flinch as a black cloud of dust crashes towards me and then I closed my eyes and everything was gone, no rain, no star in the sky not even the girl was to be seen and then I woke up but the feeling was still there this feeling of something I could not explain this feeling of being nervous by the sound of her voice and the feeling of just one glance at her eyes you would freeze and that one moment would last a life time…. Someone once told me that I think you only find one true soul mate... You just think you've had loads until you find the right one. I think I've found mine but all I can say is she's just a dream.

JustAnOrdinaryGuy

Hi my name is Fraser Allen Greenaway and I am just your average ordinary guy.